I dont hate myself I JUST HATE BEING ME!!!!!!?

im 18 yrs old in college and i dont have any friends and i havent had any for over 5 years and i never kissed a girl before and im never gonna cuz im ******* nuts i think im trapped in my own head or something. I always knew i was wierd but then i went to a few mental health websites to make sure there wasnt anything wrong and i fit the profiles for bipolar disorder paranoid personality disorder and social anxiety disorder i dont even know whats wrong with me. I cant make any friends cuz i cant get along with people cant trust them and i cant get help because i dont know how and even if i did am i supposed to go find some doctor and trust him with all my secrets or something and then how would i explain that to my parents anyway? eh? EH?? you know what sucks about being messed up in the head youre not alowed to leave when you just get sick of it! ITS ALWAYS THERE. why me?? god i just want to tear off all my skin and break open my head on a sharp rock and SCREAM

I dont hate myself I JUST HATE BEING ME!!!!!!?
First you need some help...


Good Doctor %26amp; Right Medicine does wonders.


They are know need for you to feel like this when you can get help.


Don't wait...do it soon.


Also another thing that is good is talk..as you are doing now...


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Hope to get a up-date from you.
Reply:I had my first nervous breakdown in college at about your age. Please find a doctor. You don't need to spill ANY secrets...just tell him your symptoms. I bet your parents would be relieved and supportive.





Medication works wonders...trust me. You do not have to live this way in the year 2007!
Reply:You sound so confused. Since you say that you have had no friends for past five years I suspect that when you were 13 years old and becoming a teenager you had no one to talk to about the changes taking place with your hormones and your thinking. If you are an only child you problem find it hard to talk with your parents. Reading about all the different mental problems only makes you think you have them.





I think you need to talk to a school counseller or someone you like and trust perhaps a teacher, aunt, uncle, neighbor. You probably are just a great young man who just has secluded yourself and now wants to be part of life. Join a club or find a hobby or activity that interest you. You can start socializing and meeting other people. You will find that no human being is perfect and we all have hang ups and various problems. Everyone just needs to find what in life they want to accompolish or do. Since you are in college there must be a lot of activities and clubs for you to participate. Just take the chance and trust yourself, get out there and live life a little. Do not be afraid and get rid of those terrible thoughts in your head. You have too much time thinking bad things. Keep busy and move one! Good luck